Deying

2010-02-28T00:24:00.001+08:00

farewell blog :)

2010-02-07T12:29:00.000+08:00

Hi cousins, see you guys next week :)

In the cookies of life, your friends are the chocolate chips.

2010-01-29T21:47:00.004+08:00

Happy Belated birthday :)

2008? :)

2010 ; Sp's open house.
Lastly, my love baby edwin.

Feeling really random so decided to upload some old photos.

Anyway, secondary four's life was truly an great experience for me (:
School ends at 5pm at monday and I got math tution after that from 7pm till 9pm. Wednesday and friday have band. Thurs have math tuition from 5pm to 7pm. Saturday had english tuition from 10am to 12am. Private tuition is either on saturday or sunday.

Zai. It is only the first month and I feel like dying, how to survive for the rest of the months?

Don't think I am doing tuition homework today. hehe.

Make an escape

2010-01-27T19:52:00.001+08:00

If I cannot be with you at your worst, I don't deserve your best.

生日快乐...

One last look

2010-01-26T21:38:00.002+08:00

Farewell. Love of my life.

This feeling will pass. and I will get over you.

2hrs and 29more mins.

Edwin.

2010-01-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

Till then. I will have some much to say.

Miss you baby Edwin. And look forward to you saying 'good night' to me every night.

Somewhere Close to the Heart.

2010-01-01T12:59:00.015+08:00

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Happy New Year.

I'm very glad to say a brand new year had begun and it usually means a brand new start for me. And I will put behind those whatever stuffs that makes me upset, disappointed or whatsoever for that damn-screwed-up year 2009 and move on to the future. Nothing will bring me down on 2010. :) because gian is going to study hard. Concentrate on nothing but o levels :)

Caught Avatar yesterday at westmall and it is really awesome :) went to YeeLin's house after that for our countdown party. Shall not elaborate much. Went home with Babyr at around 1plus? :) I enjoyed myself because we did something ridiculous? But adorable enough.
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Had Picnic at ECP with relatives today. Dayi, Eddie and Family , Emma and family , Eryi and her husband , Sanyi and Ahtan uncle , lastly hornyass and me!

Supposed to meet HornyAss at tpy station at 930 but both of us were late and we reached almost 950? Hehe. Ahtan Uncle came to fetch us after that brought us to old kallang road for breakfast. I had nasi lemark and ice milo but the nasi lemark tasted horrible though. Proceeded to ECP after that and hornyass and me were having fun applying sunblock lotion. :D

Anyway, we were pretty lucky because we were totally under the shelter and we found a wooden table! ok, whatever. Sanyi is the most powderful one. Because she brought like bed sheets for us if we want to sleep or sit on -.- table cloth and plastic cover and etc.. It feels more like a camp than picnic actually. Ohwell, abit kiasu but this is my family's style and I like it :) To be prepared for everything -.-

So settled up, ate then we went off to cycle. Didn't cycle much today, because at first we were helping with Edgar to learn rollar blading and time flew fast, by the time I realised it was time to return the bikes. Anyway, baby Edwn was there too and he looked adorable with his four-wheels bicycle :)

Yup, we did one wrong thing there and is we gambled while playing blackjack. I think it was about half an hour when we started our game and the NE parks officers came to stop us. It was kinda funny at first but it turned pretty serious when they asked for ic. Luckily it was only a warning or it could be a fine. Damn spoiled mood anyway. Went t seaside and played with baby Edwin :) Ahh, he this boy caused me to be wet because seriously I DON'T HAVE TO BE! Packed up and we left.

Went back to Sanyi's house and washed up. Then sanyi brought me and horny to bugis for steamboat, damn shuang. Heheh.

So I guess my first day of the year is great! To have a good ending, it must start with a good beginning :)

yup, I just want to say I'm really glad I understand more about my family past now. Very complicating but interesting. And please be reassure this story will be pass down.. :)

Till then..

All I get for christmas is a spoiled handphone.

2009-12-27T12:27:00.003+08:00

I'm at Emma's house now :)

Had a totally awesome week and I have been not been getting enough sleep and the pimples are coming out.

Will be back by night.

Ohyes, I want to say,I TOTALL LOVE THE WAY EMMA PLAYS THE PIANO.

2009-12-20T14:38:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Edwin.
I will dote you for the rest of your life, just like how your daddy did to me.
(:

Loveyou.

Little BobDog.

2009-12-19T21:11:00.004+08:00

Hi. I managed to sweep and mop the floor today. Awesome right.

oh and yes, did I mention I cut my hair? and it is like short now. Can't stand it, ttm.

Anyway, I just realized tomorrow is baby edwin's birthday, so I am going to buy him a present. And tomorrow we going to overnight at dayi's house till tuesday. Bye bloggie.

('.') is awesome.

Childhood Crush.

2009-12-19T11:33:00.004+08:00

The Bride. I got that best sian look.

HornyAss!

Awesome cousins.

Best cousins for life. Wahaha.

K, wedding photos. I know I looked ultra fat in certain photos ): but fat means fat, I cannot do anything to it.

Going to stay overnight at dayi's house tomorrow. and I am very proud to say I finished my puzzle that was meant to be a gift to jenny jie and hanhua kor :D Awesome. I hope they will like it.

So plans for today is, to sweep and mop floor, remove bed sheets and pack my books.
Life's great, yesno? :)

One last look, I promised.

Gorgeous, pretty, beauty nail salon.

2009-12-16T08:04:00.004+08:00

8.04AM.

Sumpa. I had a ultra bad night. Kept waking up at the middle of the night because my body parts ache like nothing like that. So I gave up and woke up at 4.45am (I know because I saw the time)
And I sumpa I got a big fright when I on the light and see my legs because both legs is covered with bruises, think I got it when I was learning riding yesterday. Awesome right?

Decided to do something meaningful instead of stoning, so I went to fix my puzzle. Anyway, I really conclude my mind works better in pre-dawn hours because I fixed one portion already. Greaat.

Still thinking whether should I reborn my hair? it's cheaper now to reborn than during chinese new year. Sigh, big headache. I'm staying at home today no matter what!

2009-12-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

You know, I really don't want to let go.

Nothing will change for us. :)

2009-12-03T21:43:00.005+08:00

Anyway, just being random, I came across the photos we took during last year concert.

I really miss last year band concert. 29march 08 , the date still attached to my mind very clearly. That was the best concert I ever had. Remember how the band spent our march holiday band camp preparing for the concert, running through all the repertoire over and over again. Had practice from 8pm to 12am continuously for 3days. Damn zai I tell you. And those times I spent with my section and Mr. Poh were truly unforgettable. If given a choice, I really would want to return to those times. Miss the strong french horn section and now I am so ashamed of myself because I am not capable enough to maintain the standard.

I just need to work hard, I don't know how hard it will be, but I will.

2009-12-01T15:40:00.008+08:00

First day of december.

One month had just passed and I could not believe it. I spent most of my time in band, or at home sleeping or went out occasionally but not on studying. So ashamed of myself, because I was supposed to revise my studies when I am having olvls next year. Can you believe? I am going to be secondary four -.- So yup, I told myself I will study when december starts. Hopefully I will do it. (?) Sigh.

oh and ya, before I forgot, did I mention brother gian is leaving singapore for hong kong for studies for two weeks? Though I do argue with him very often and purposely pissed him off but I think, I will still miss him. And my instinct tells me he do not know how to take care of himself, but mummy says it is good for him to get expose out of singapore. Hopefully he brings gifts back for me :D (:

Back to the issue on band, the new principle did not want the band to participate in outdoor syf next year. This is so saddening because we have practiced so hard for it and all he do was to reject because he wanted us to concentrate on our studies. I already prepared to get myself tan and I don't care whether there will be more sunburnt or so. But it is too late. I am going to miss my mellophone.

oh and Edwin has come to Singapore! (: and I heard he is settling down in sg for good and not returning back to Indonesia anymore. I can play with him again when I stayed in dayi's house. It just makes my day listening to 'I-don't-know-what-the-hell-you-are-speaking" language. Hehe. Hopefully he will allow me to hug him because he got prejudices towards girls. Hahaha, except his mama, the one and only. He even rejected dayi, his grandma ok!

Before I end, I just want to say I enjoyed 2Jade'08 bbq last night though I was super drained out. You guys are the best.

Patience is a virtue.

2009-11-21T20:45:00.007+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Irene! (:

HI. Stayed at home the whole day because my very-not-sensible brother passed to me his flu. You know how effing unhygienic he is because he kept sneezing without closing his effing mouth. The worst thing was whenever I asked his to shut his effing mouth, he would say 'You also always do that ma, learn from you de..' At least I think I am not as disgusting as he is.

So you know how effing irritated I am now?!!!!!

Veri Veri Veri Veri Veri IRRITATED NOW! >:(

2009-11-20T22:18:00.009+08:00

Dunearnite.

NCO Pictures.

Say hi! to the majors.

YoSup. I shall update since babyrongxz says so :)

Dunearnite is finally over! So glad that this is my last year and I don't have to participate this anymore in the future (: You know how much I have been looking forward to this day?! So great, Like Great.

Don't have much to update actually. Oh and ya, have been wanting to work this holiday but mummy is not keen in this idea, so give up ahz. I shall study instead, though I haven't start on any revision yet.

Going to have band camp during the dec holidays, and Liting's and Jenny's Jie wedding to attend. How to attend when I going to turn super tan during this holidays because of foot drills?! Nevermind, must learn to love what I do, so I can enjoy it! (: Motivating, yesno?

Happy birthday to you. (:

2009-11-17T00:37:00.001+08:00

Going to band is testing my patience ttm _|_
Keep calm, stay cool.

2009-11-08T21:09:00.009+08:00

Hi.

Went out with mummy to IMM then WM.

Anyway, mummy was being very random today.

Firstly, she asked if I got boyfriend? Then she moved on to has anyone got a crush on me or something? -.0 Yup, I actually told her everything. But of course, I didn't mention about Egg. Then we moved on, to my friends. Talked all the way from my most reliable friends to the unreliable ones. I also mentioned her that I got great cousins. She was like very satisfied -.-

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Went to find brother gian first when we reached IMM to pass him his strepsils and we walked around after that. I deliberately walked into challenger and immediately stood in front of the section of mp3 and ipods. Of course, mummy knows what am I thinking even if I don't say. She was like next year buy for you k, because she must be fair and buy for brother too. I agreed and we went out of the shop. Then suddenly, mummy hold me in my shoulder and said,

M : If I strike lottery, I can buy for you two already.
Me : You know that will never happen.
M : Ya hor, nevermind. Buy next year -.-

Weirdzx ah? Don't know what's wrong with her.

Anyway, had pepper lunch for dinner :D and I ate 2 bowls of ice cream. Fattening ah.
Trained to wm after that and I brought my bac pac and made a library card. Tyvm mummy. Very waste money I know. I promise I will work hard for my studies in return.

oh and ya, I swear singaporeans likes to knock people man because mummy and me got knocked like thousand times. So mummy turned to me and said,

Mummy : 今天很多人撞我.
Me : Then?
Mummy : 我看我太小只了.
Me : *Laughs*

HAHAHA.

Good day with mummy though she is freaking random. I love her ah.

2009-11-08T01:10:00.003+08:00

Hi.

-Was super bored till Jas text me this afternoon and asked me to meet sihan and her for volleyball.
-So went down but it was raining during that time so hanged out in the void deck and talked instead.
-Rain stopped, played but found the ground disgusting and wet so changed our mind and went to my house to rest instead.
-Went WM with Jas to meet her mom after that.
-Walked, wanted to buy backpack so called mummy.
-But mummy is unhappy so gave up.
-Dragged my feet home but end up mummy say its ok buy it if you want. :D
-So still thinking whether should I.

Interesting ah.

Good night.

2009-11-04T22:25:00.006+08:00

Kope for Marcus's blog.

Kope for Jo-Ee's facebook photos.

Happy Birthday Dearest HornyAss!!!
so sorry, can't celebrate your birthday with you today, I will make up for you k. Lastly, remember to smile always. Love you very much, cousin.

I am back from the camp!
Anyway, the reasons why we came back earlier is because the main water pipe in desaru is burst by( what the trainers and teachers claimed) the storm on monday night (I only know it rain but don't know it was a storm) or maybe some vehicles drove past and burst it so all this so called they claimed reasons caused water shortage to most of us. And due to the fact that it is the monsoon season now, and we are too close to the south china sea, it will be too dangerous for us to stay there just in case there is another storm or natural disaster?!?!

i don't know..

But now, I would rather stay at there for one more night actually. You got no idea how much I enjoyed myself, though the environment there is like you know, not as good as singapore, but I still enjoyed myself with girls, 3 emerald and our beloved trainers, JAY AND ZEE. All of them are so greatzxzx!!! Love you guys ttm!

Sigh, I really miss them now. I really miss. If I know we would be back early, I would have spent those last few hours meaningfully, instead of sleeping. Seriously, Jay and Zee is the best trainers I have ever experienced with.

K. so emo now. You know how much I miss them? how much I miss the sound of waves crashing to the shore? How much I miss the beautiful scenery there? how much i miss my girls and classmates? how much I miss the trainers?

GAH.

nevermind, I have learnt many things there. and I will learn t appreciate what I got. Good camp, best camp.

Tired like shitzzx now.

2009-11-03T00:16:00.004+08:00

Good Morning. My clock says it is 12.16AM now.
Yes, I am suppose to be in bed now but waiting for my hair to dry.

Going desaru tomorrow. I am not excited. Seriously, you know? you won't understand.

Firstly, I can't celebrate hornyass's birthday because it is on the 4th and I am still there.
Secondly, there brings many memories too.
Thirdly, I can't say it out :p
Fourthly, I am going to miss mummy.

So ya, big _|_ to that.

take care of yourself, brother gian and mummy chong.

ohya, and advanced happy birthday to horny ass (: Love you very much k.

lastly, take care my les partner cheong pui funn!

Anyway, not leaving any last words. Me will be back :D

2009-10-28T21:14:00.007+08:00

Hi. Attended career discovery workshop today. And it turned out to be great (:

Took personality test, which was quite true but somehow not true. Because none of jobs that suit my personality is something I want to be. I still want a be a vet though I am afraid of cats(only).

Went to wm to eat with girls after that, udders for ice cream which I regretted because the green tea-rrific ice cream kinda suck. Cabbed back school because we thought we would be late for band.

Anyway, band was canceled last min, or not really last min because obviously someone knows, but she did not inform any member or another teacher which make me f*cking pissed off to the max because I already opened the room and prepared most things. Big _|_ to you.

Went home after that.

Sigh. I think I am going to retain this year. ))):

2009-10-26T19:55:00.005+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Goh Jo-Ee.

Hope you like the present and enjoy the cake.

<3

2009-10-23T21:36:00.004+08:00

Hi. Got a very hectic week.

Monday- Went out with girls to queensway and ikea. (: Brought bottles, and more bottles and cushions.

Tuesday- Went to central with cheong to buy sticky for the band. Damn expensive yet so nice. Went home and wash all the bottles we bought from ikea the previous day, dried it and put all the sticky in. I never want to do it again, I promise. Never knew it was so tiring to wash 54 bottles cum caps and wipe them dry.

Wednesday-Got my back results, and I failed both maths!!!! ((: _|_ think if were me, had your maths failed since secondary 1 to 3, you would seriously give up. Anyway, ow fetched us to cdans after school and we had band lunch in guilin restaurant. Ate and walked back to school for band. Swear I almost slap myself because I can't play.

Thursday- Went JE swimming complex with girls after school :D Stayed back for camp briefing before that and I swear it is a big waste of time. Swam, had lots of fun and went to have kfc for dinner after that. Hehe, remember the last time I went there was with hornyass, sanyi and ahtan uncle. And it is so memorable because.. X thought she would drown in a 1.0m pool, hehehe. Took mrt home then.

Friday- Me just passed biology but contented enough. Thanks Emma for going through with me the whole bloody 11 chapters the day before. I had an interesting lesson, seriously :D Had kobayashi for lunch after school and Jingrong and Jo-Ee had their haircut. Went home and slept for 3hours straight (: Zai.

K, I am going to watch death note tonight. Then band tomorrow. Foot drills, foot drills and more foot drills.

Get well soon Jq!

2009-10-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

Hi. I am happy.

Anyway, had a long yet enjoyable day (:

Went to queensway and had laksa :D wooo, love it. Walked around, and me bought bottles for brother and me. No new school bag for me ): but nevermind. Contented enough (:

Walked to ikea, and damn you won't want to know what happened. Hehehe.
Joee's dad sent us t my house to put stuffs, then babyr and ros went home from there.
:D

2009-10-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

Hi. I love my best friend :)

Good night.

2009-10-18T20:56:00.001+08:00

My dear Computey. I promise you.

IF YOU ARE STILL GOING TO BE SO LAG, I MAKE SURE I WILL CRASH YOU OR THROW YOU ONTO THE FLOOR AND MAKE SURE YOU _____!

Pretty irritated. F this computer.

2009-10-16T21:27:00.002+08:00

On a Friday Night.

Hi. I intend to spent my friday night watching Hua Mu Lan since there is nothing to do and I guess it is pretty interesting.

Anyway, one teenage guy just came to my house door step and asked mummy for money just now because he claimed that his ez-link does not have any cash anymore so he want to go home by taxi. And he also want to rush home to watch SOCCER MATCH. Soft-hearted mummy wanted to give but end up she did not just for precaution. And know what? The pathetic guy scolded mummy vulgarities as if mummy caused him to be like that -.- _|_ him hard. NbCb. I hope you are running back to bedok now.

Feel so sarcastic now. Hmm.

Good night, have a good sleep you. :)

我很后悔放你走..

2009-10-15T22:11:00.003+08:00

Hi. I am playing mouse hunt now.

Exams are over! :)

Anyway, I am freaking disappointed with my chemistry paper today. Can't describe how upset I feel, you know. Chemistry is such an interesting subject though I dislike the teacher (insert name) who taught us.

Never mind. I think I can retain this year already. ): So depressed.
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Went JE with Ros after paper to collect her phone and had pepper lunch. Took 66 home, and started playing mouse hunt. Hehe. Because I promised Babyr, Rosalyn and Jo-Ee I would play it after exam :D It is veri addictive! Though have to wait every 15 minutes to press the horn again. and it gets on your nerves when it wrote 'I sounded the Hunter's Horn, but my Marble cheese failed to attract a mouse.' I got like few in a row -.- Patience is the key man.

Bathed, and bus down to Cdans. Went kbox and I had so much fun. Hehe :D Took 188 down to Lot1 to have dinner after that :)

Anyway, me really enjoyed myself today. Thankyou sweetie-s. <3

2009-09-28T19:43:00.000+08:00

In that narrow heart of yours, finally got me replaced.

Retribution.

2009-09-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

It is currently 12.15am now.
My brain is shutting down soon.

Short update before I go to sleep.

Anyway, brother gian is back from his chalet! :D Hahah, you will be shock if I actually say I miss him when he went for his chalet two days back.

So random.

Chinese oral tomorrow ): anyone help me? I only know how to write but not read chinese words.

Birthday Tears.

2009-08-31T23:21:00.005+08:00

Never been so upset and dropped tears for my birthday before. I hope this will be the first and last one.

Anyway, just wanna thanks everone for the wishes. Thanks baby rong, Ros, Claud, HuiXuan and beloved french horn section for the presents. and of course, not forgetting Jas, Irene, SiHan and Angela for singing the birthday song the moment I reached bukit view (: Thanks Irene, Jas, Sihan and angela for the birthday card and Jas for the packet of milo too.

Saw plenty of primary school friend. It makes me wonder why people like Brandon never stop growing taller cause he seen to be growing taller every year I see him and Nic never changing the habit of his long and continuous freaking loud disgusting bur. But whatever it is, it is good to see them.

[:

Birthday Wish.

2009-08-29T01:28:00.005+08:00

Had a birthday dinner with relatives just now and I enjoyed myself. Thanks the tan-ny cousins for that wallet ( god! I finally got a wallet! :D ) and horny ass and weijia kor for the shirt :D me like it. Anyway, I just want to thank horny ass again, because of her, the wish that I have since young that I thought would never come true came true and for the first time, very first time, it was with him. Tyvm. Know how much i appreciate it.

Lastly, just wanna apologized to br and j. and thanks br for all the effort [:

Dearest E, it has been seven years. Though it was one-sided all along but this seven years has put my love for you in numerous tests. Every phrase of my life, whenever I tried to let you go, things would happened and made me give in. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether it was a hint from god that I should not let go or it was just a bloody trap from life, making sure I suffer before I could let go but I still fall for it every time.

Remember how you gave up your bed for me, remember the times being near to you especially during d trip, remember how happy you were when everyone celebrated your birthday makes me happy too. Second time, the second time you gave something to me and I treasure it as the most important stuff even if I know how dumb it was to do that when it does not matter to you at all.

So near yet so far. I can only stand at a point looking at you. No matter how much I wanna reach out my hand, I have to hold back. I will only look at you till today, and from tomorrow onwards, I am determined to move on. It is going to be tough, as much as not many would understand. It is not something that not seeing you every day, avoiding and ignoring you or not looking at you would help. It requires determination. so much of it.

I have never regretted everything that I had done for you, never regret choosing this choice. But the only regret was not having the chance to put in my everything for you, know how much I am willing to give in.

It is all too late. No matter how hard it is, life still goes on. I have spent 7years, 7years of waiting miracles to happen and dropping tears for you.. I am not waiting anymore. Know how reluctant I am.

C. I have to remember we are only c. always have been c.

有一种爱叫做放手.
Long last with her. you will be happy.

Reality is cruel. I will work hard. [:

2009-08-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

I really thank god for giving me a way out.

I am grateful for everything you had done for me. and sorry for all the unhappiness I caused. Thank you for making me understand one heart cannot contain two person and make me how much I love him. Just wanna say don't give up in yourself. Jiayou for eoy. Take care.

2009-08-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

Deleted previous post.

Since it is a brand new day, I am going do something more meaningful :D It is not giandeying's character to be like that so I am going to be strong and move on. Let nature takes its course and I am washing my hands off this thing :D

Thanks br, you never failed to give me courage to move on.
(:

2009-08-13T00:31:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Sameon :D
Hope you like the care bear.

2009-08-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Claudia.

Hope you enjoyed your birthday this year. Thanks for always cheering me up. Be happy always.
:D

Happy National Day.

2009-08-09T00:39:00.003+08:00

Best for you.

Had so much fun today :D

Accompany some pig fr lunch in westmall today then went to meet HuiMin and Gwen and took 172 to JiaQi's house. Hahah, it has been a long time since I went to her house again, seriously miss those times. Enjoyed myself so much there :D and ate many satay too ): aww, damn fattening. Gonna go swimming tomorrow after tuition. Rosalyn's dad sent us home after that (:

I am so tired now. Going to sleep when my hair is dry.

Anyway, hope you like your gift Claudia :D

If nothing is going to change for us , I just wish you to be happy.
dearest you, be happy..

2009-08-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

You had just removed my presence from your heart.

I am feeling damn tired this few days, I could like sleep immediately the moment I reached the class.
Best right. and school still suckzxzx like a million and billion of shit.

Actual ndp on friday, so damn look forward to it because after that will be holiday :D stay at home and make sure I rot.

But anyway, one thing I am happy about today is I finally could make sure I don't flared up while coaching my juniors. Yes I know, it takes alot of patience but since I am the sl, I got to work hard, yes no? So yes, I am just going work hard on that.

2009-08-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

4 August ; Happy 17th Birthday HuiXuan (:
Just want to thank you for always being for me and giving me encouragement whenever I feel like giving up. You are the best senior I ever got. Hope you enjoyed yourself today. Love you.

2009-08-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

It is currently 9.44pm. 3hours and 16 mins more to my dearest senior HuiXuan's Birthday :D

School sucks like a million and billion of shitzxzx today. In fact, for every day actually.
Going to have band on tues, wed and fri. Seriously gonna keep me busy. Hahaha, I like it. Ya, I am being sarcastic.
:D

I need to study, I need to study, I need to study, I need to study.
Trying to motivate myself but apparently, it is not working. I need motivation, seriously.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ooooooooooooooooooooooo

Good night.

2009-08-02T00:41:00.003+08:00

Need to trust you more.

I am going to love you for who you are.

Thankyou babyr.
<3

2009-08-01T02:37:00.011+08:00

Your words just stabbed right through my heart.

Blog is pretty empty now but I like it.
It is currently 3am now and I don't feel like sleeping. I hope I will not be late meeting laoma for lunch later, then I will go swimming after that.

A brand new month just began and I need to study hard from this month onwards.
Seriously don't want to retain this year.

I am going off before brother starts nagging on me using the computer.

dread messaging you this few days. Seriously hate arguing with you over and over again.

2009-07-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

Dearest E, do get well soon k! Promise I will be there if you are bored. Me is looking forward to the day I go to your house and overnight. You got to hang on k.

Love you dearest Emma.

2009-07-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

Alright, I am listening to teen titans now! :D

I feel good, I don't feel good, I feel good, I don't feel good. I feel good, I don't feel good. I feel good. I don't feel good. I feel good. I don't feel good. I feel good. I don't feel good. I feel good. I don't feel good.

Alright, going to study for social studies test tomorrow, though I am 100.1% confirm I might fail, like always.

Good Night.

2009-07-27T18:33:00.008+08:00

Childhood memories.

It have been 5 damn bad years ever since I moved back from dayi's house and every time, I cannot stop myself from being upset whenever I came back. Her house contains all my childhood memories and friends, how simple life was back then. Sigh, reminiscing the good old days.

Enjoyed myself a big time in dayi's house during the weekends :D me want to go there oftenly again.

Alright before I leave, I am contented with how things are now (: I had my four important friends right with me now, my cousins that ever dote me so much and last but not least, dayi and her family that would always be my emotional support. And you (: that ever making me happy.

I am going to be a happy girl.

2009-07-25T00:42:00.003+08:00

Miss you guys real bad.

And now I am all left alone by myself with the juniors. How mean you guys are ):

So sick for working so hard on something that is not going to work.

me is going to dayi's house to overnight. Gonna enjoy myself there before I come back.

2009-07-19T00:48:00.001+08:00

Anyway, Kobe Bryant is coming to Singapore or maybe in Singapore now :D
But I will not get to see him ): heard that from Jq that tickets are selling fast.
So sad. My idol.

I am going to be a good girl and study as much as I can. And in band, I shall be more patient with my juniors and make sure I bloody hell knows how to play majulah singapura because although playing it for 3 damn years, I still don't have enough air to play the continuous triplet notes. Seriously irritating. Need to swim more.

Anyway, before I leave, just wanna say a big big thanks to BabyR (:
Miss you like crap.

2009-07-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

Just nothing to you.

After one month of unhappiness, things are finally returning to how it should [: I am glad, really glad that my best will be happy again because for that one month you will not want to imagine how much painful it was for her. It breaks me like nothing to witness through how much she struggled.But now, lets look forward to the present and future [:

So best, you deserved to be happy to be everything. Remember I am always a phone call away. [: I love you my bestf.

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I know I should not be missing you now but can't help it. I hope you are fine there [:

Canon in D - Aria Celestina

2009-07-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

Give up.

2009-07-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Emma and Tina.

Emma. If without you, I would not come to this far. We grew up together and I remember last time I would go your house and stay frequently and occasionally we will go to the beach and have picnic :D the bond we forged since we were young will always stay with me. Thanks for ever being part of my life.

deep in my heart, you stays in a place where no one could enter or take you out.

2009-07-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Tan papa.

You are like my own dad. You taught me to be sincere to people and to always help your friends whenever they need help. I tried my best to do everything you taught but it does not seen to work for me.But I will stay strong like how you always asked me to and it seen that you always knew when I am unhappy.I will study hard and I promise you, I will not let you suffer at all when I grow up (: thank you papa for always willing to sent me back home whenever I stay at your house even though you could use this 1hr to sleep/rest and always spent money on me even though I don't want you too. Smoke less please.

And

Happy Birthday to Mummy.

So sorry for my childish attitude and unpredictable mood swing at home. Sometimes I wish I could tell you how my life is right now and why I am upset, but it is hard. Thank you for putting up with it.I was never ashamed of our family because I know you had tried your best to give the best you could for brother and me. Hahah, and I will remember your face expression when I tell you that I will tell you when I got a boyfriend.Thank you mummy, for everything.

Had kayaking for the past 2days and I am sun-burnt like shitzx.

My lips is swollen, my burnt skin is hurting and with bruises here and there.

I shall not elaborate much. But during this 2 days, I have learnt alot of things and

enjoyed myself even though I had to put up with the fact that I was actually swimming in the reservoir water that reek of dead fishes.

Got do homework later. I don't want to return to school. Too emotional now.

If I got a second chance..to make up for everything.

2009-07-01T20:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Nigel (: and get well soon brother gian.

Anyway, brother gian is sick and mummy had just brought him to the doctor again. I hope he don't get H1N1, like seriously or the consequences is dreadful.

Need to get some sleep and do my homework later.

Anyway, I decided. It is time to stop being childish and I got to grow up and move on.

& yet no matter how you treat me, you still stay as important as ever.

2009-06-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

Never in my life will I expect you to do that.

Had a very bad morning.
Got 3 bloody calls that woke me up, 2 of them is from school which I purposely did not answer while 1 of them is from MrBeh which I answered. Aiyer, seriously irritating. MrBeh called me just to ask me where is the loan file, and for goodness sake, it is like only 8am plus -.- Anyway, Mr Ow called me at noon and he is seriously very kp because he was like "deying, this is mr ow here, do you have H1N1 flu?" Funny ah mr ow -.-

Meet baby rong at west mall and went to kfc to eat. 945 down to yl's house for class bbq after that. I shall not elaborate much, too tired to even write down everything.

Took bus home with baby rong, Alwin and Junqian at 11pm.
Baby Rong and Jq alighted early while Alwin and me took to bb interchange.
Walked with Alwin to his bus stop and we went to 7eleven on the way there.
Anyway, he is seriously irritating because I was choosing drinks with him so I asked him if BIG M was nice, so he said "Yes, but I never drink before." -.- but end up we still bought it.

So yeah, good day.

How much I miss you friend..

2009-06-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Dayi :D
Hope you like the bottle of roses though it does not look like one. Me love you.

Anyway, dayi had been looking after me since I was a baby, and all the way till I was primary 4. I really appreciate your 10 years of love, care and concern, taking care of brother and me. I am sorry that I am so not sensible in the past but thanks for everything (: because of you, I understand alot of things. And I am always very happy to stay over in your house.

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Anyway, today is the last day of band day camp.
Though the duration were long but I think I had alot of fun for the past 3 days :D every time during break, Ros, Sab, Sheryl and me will have our breakfast/lunch together :D and they will talk about the stupid advertisement that is shown in the television. Heheh, seriously hilarious.
But today make me realised I am not a good sl, can't even read simple and straightforward rhythm, sigh. You suck a big time man.

Brought back my french horn today :D awww, I regretted. I should have bring marching horn because it is so much lighter. Went to lot1 with baby rong and friends and had kfc for dinner. They are seriously so crap but I had fun :D 985 home.

Sigh, I miss band already..

Lastly, dearest horny ass cheer up k (: remember what choices you will make I will definitely support you. Here for you. Jiayou.

and Baby rong, I love you.

2009-06-20T17:35:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Brother Gian and Joyce.
Though you are such an bloody bastard sometimes but you can be nice still :D

I am going out for dinner later for brother's birthday but mummy and him is still sleeping. -.-

sian.

2009-06-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

Band today and I brought my own bread :D ham with butter and bread, it is freaking nice ok.

Went to kobayashi and eat with baby rong (omgz!) after band and we went to buy brother gian's birthday present :D brother's leg like big eh, size 11. Went to fairprice and meet hole, that sickening girl. I ran around because of her and got criticized by some aunties lor D: eh, asshole. Hahaha. Ohya, and we saw Jiali too :D

Acted like Miss Swan with Baby Rong while waiting for bus home. I swear the people around us got si peh pek check. Sorry ah.

Went out to eat mac for dinner then went to Irene's house :D hahaha. Went home at 10.

Rosalyn, everything I want to say I already said in the phone :D and it sounded so gay. Hahahaha. All of us wil be supporting you! Especially my ambition! You know it. [:

2009-06-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

Life is weird when the people you used to admire has unpredictable mood swing.

So yes, band today.
Me look forward to foot drills every morning :D

Anyway, I am going to bring bread with nutella for the rest of the holiday or saturday band prac, because I can't go for break so I need to bring my own bread or I will really starve to death. Sian, I am going to miss my fanchouy man.

Stayed back after band to deal with th new marching percussion instrument :D It was cooler than I thought it will be. Anyway, MrYeo ordered pizza hut because all of us were very hungry included him, hehe. So we ate, and I ate 3 pizza. Awww, fattening.

Went home at 5 plus, I think. I don't check time nowadays in band, totally lost track already.

So yes, before I go off, I think I am not doing my part of saving the gaia nowdays. I need to work harder.

2009-06-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

Gian am eating pocky right now even though she just had my dinner.
Anyway, I plan to get myself slim down during june holidays, I don't know how but somehow but now I think I am gaining weight instead.

I am seriously bored now. Like bored.

2009-06-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

I brought 2 insturments back today!

Yay, me is back! I don't know why I have been so busy nowdays.

Mon, Wed, Fri - Band. Anyway, I had fun working with sab and leeleelee :D

Tues- Went back to school with baby rong in the morning and went home and slept for 7 hours :D

Thurs - Met horny ass and her mom :D They went down to mummy's working place to eat and I brought them to beauty world after that to buy uniform. Anyway, me haven see horny ass for a long time, so I am super gald to see her. Hornyass went to JP after that while I went to west mall. Hahaha, watched drag me to hell with baby rong and friends :D Seriously entertaining. This is worst than flying foxzz yo, because it like 'wow, omg, fymh la' :D Some girls behind us even dropped their box of popcorn -.-

Stock check on 23/6, mr beh stop changing the date yo.

I will continue playing my marching horn tomorrow :D you got no idea how much I just love it. And after 2 long years, Gian finally said she like foot drills. wahahah.

ok, I think I suck now. I need to be a better sl. hah, random.

Night.

2009-06-11T01:50:00.000+08:00

Gian, you are not going to collapse.
Hang on.

2009-06-08T16:09:00.001+08:00

Why am I feeling so upset now? ):
me miss dayi, miss tan papa, miss her family.

I really hate coming back because I don't want to face the reality.
I don't have the courage right now.

Sigh, and from today onwards I am so going to stop thinking of you (: shut up, you are off my mind now.

Band bbq later, be happy, be happy, be happy.

2009-06-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

Jing Rong said that I can only post one photo out of the ten of them I took. She kept saying her bangs is ugly though it looked perfectly fine to me :D

So yes, a round of applause, she changed her hairstyle.

And I promise I will gain weight because when I am upset, I will eat and feel better after that, wahahha. I just love it like nothing.

2009-06-01T01:41:00.000+08:00

Get Well Soon Hornyass :D

I thought over it.

2009-05-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

Thanks TanPapa and Dayi for your encouragement :D I know you two will never see this but both of you never failed to make me happy. I love you.

chen Jing Rong, please take care of yourself ):

2009-05-30T15:31:00.000+08:00

Day 2 camp.

So in love with you.

I realised how much I had changed and it feels seriously scary.

I will be happy, I guess.

): ): ):

2009-05-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

Beloved, I love you. You know I always do.

2009-05-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

It's no point updating. So I will stop blogging, hopefully.

Anyway, congrats hornyass's band for getting GWH for syf :D
Good job alright. many loves, cousin.

humanities down.

2009-05-03T18:09:00.001+08:00

Went to study with Joey and Jo-Ee just now :D
but you know we got very hungry and whatever you can say, so we went to IMM for lunch instead.

Walked back and I took 66 home :D

JingRong, thanks for the lovely sweet letter <3 de appreciate it.

2009-05-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

Omg. I feel so weak now.

Anyway, had tuition today and I got scolded like shitz from tutor because I told her proudly that I failed my common test. This is call, serve you right.

Went to play badminton with brother just now, yeah I had fun :D thanks brother.

study, study, study.

2009-05-01T21:47:00.001+08:00

So much to tell you.
I miss you friend.

2009-04-30T22:32:00.001+08:00

Thanks Jet :D

2009-04-29T19:24:00.000+08:00

Once bitten, twice shy.

I am dead, I have not start my revision at all because I don't know which subject should I start on first and I need to find Emma soon to coach my biology but feel so not free everyday. I swear I will not be surprise if I do badly for my mye.

die, die, die.
negative thoughts.

2009-04-27T16:50:00.001+08:00

Don't cry girl.

Never mind, I decided to move on with life.
Just a unique acquaintance you are, the painful and joyful memories you gave
to me.

I will remember you for life, because of the beautiful memories we had and the indescribable pain you had inflicted on me. It never heals, for years.

2009-04-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

Cheer up dearest horny ass. Sorry that I cannot do anything to make you feel better but no matter what, always here for you. You can call or sms me anytime you want, be happy k, love you (:

2009-04-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

Chinese papers were horrible today. I am too lazy to elaborate in details. Anyway, went to Rosalyn's house after exam, it was since ages we went there again. Went butterfly effect without any sound, cool right? (: you never know how vulgar the show is man.

Whatever, took 241 back to interchange and 174 backed home.

I feel so empty, ya right whatever.

2009-04-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

Credits to horny ass :D

20 April.
Happy Birthday Eryi :D sorry for spoiling your mood, I seriously don't mean to break down in front of you all and spoiled the atmosphere. Anyway, bigbig thanks to horny ass! and big thanks to Jing Rong too!(:

I am too lazy to elaborate what's going in my life. Nothing bad, nothing good. Something that I should have give up long ago, but I did not and caused what is happening now. I give up,
I don't want to be a stupid fool going around asking nothing, seriously.

Goodbye humans, I off to study for my chinese.
so disappointed and upset.

2009-04-19T00:45:00.000+08:00

Thankyou mummy for buying a new phone for me (: I will take care of it & I shall go and make my ezlink card soon though I always wonder why I either lost my handphone or ezlink card. It must be a curse. yaya, whatever.

Alright, I am very upset/pekchek/confused now so I am not in a mood to elaborate my day. Next time then.

It must be me that causes everything not working.
friendship, kinship, studies..

2009-04-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

Freak Day.

Alright. I lost of my handphone and ezlink card so don't contact me for a while unless you got my house phone ):

Hate everything.

2009-04-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

D'day had arrived and everyone's hard work is paid off :D

ohyaaay, we got a silver for syf :D Though we hope for a gold but we did our best so I am proud of it. Thankyou all the soloist, good job man! (:

Anyway, I am overjoyed! (: Thankyou Mr.Yeo for all your hard work, I appreciate it, hope you are happy there :D

I am over the moon! shall go study my chem test now, hate the fact we got school tomorrow, I rather go for band. takecare!

2009-04-06T20:25:00.000+08:00

Jiayou for tomorrow SYF! :D

we can do it!

2009-04-02T19:49:00.001+08:00

http://sgbandfusion.com/

Alright, Deying have been arguing and irritating too many teachers for this few 3months so she had decided that she should just stop.

Yesterday and today was so enjoyable :D but I am lazy to elaborate.

5 more days to syf, jiayou band mates :D all horny de dui bu dui? haha :p

2009-03-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

7 more days to syf, anxious D:

School was fine today, did not went for sectionals and went home.

Gian just failed her Emaths common test which takes up 55% of CA1 so she is prepared to see underline in her result slip, I bet her tutor will kill her if she know man.

but nevermind,
SELF-MOTIVATION :D JIAYOU.

Chen Jing Rong, get well soon! (:

2009-03-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

Gian had just created a new blog :D